self-publication

i've always produced all my albums entirely by myself (including artwork and booklets) but now i'm trying my hand at the publication words rather than music. sure, it's for class and there'll only be one copy, but it's a first step in the right direction. plus it's gonna look rad.

it's also largely in part because about halfway to two-thirds of the way through this quarter i became really disenchanted with all my written work. i want to end this quarter with something i can be proud of. and i'm hardly ever proud of anything (besides awesome chord progressions).

and i'm really thinking about bailing on the bluesgrass band. i just don't think i can handle playing or hanging out with andy anymore. he's not inherently horrible, but he's definitely the last person i'd want to be my frontman, since he doesn't have a pleasant singing voice, has zero experience, and plays each of the songs almost entirely unaware of what everyone else is playing and of how the song may actually go. i hate to talk behind his back like this (to who? no one) but i need to vent and i'm sure quinn's tired of hearing about it. next quarter i'm gonna start jamming with some other guys and if there's even a small connection i'm dropping the others in a second.

also, i've decided i've passed the test and have graduated from smoking weed. there are other drugs which are far more productive. i'll probably still smoke for playing or mixing music, but it just doesn't help my writing of words. we'll see how things go when i attempt a semi-normal sleep schedule but i think i'm done with it. which is kind of a bummer because i was starting to like estera and it seemed like she was starting to like me, but i don't quite have the balls to hit her up without weed as an excuse. oh well. bigger fish to fry.